Josh...the Second Act

Well things did not go as I had hoped. Josh is really good at acting normal. The Psychologist and Psychiatrist at the hospital released him on Friday at 10:00 am where he then went to his Grandma & Grandpa Webb's. He was visibly anxious but saying that he was just fine and did not need to go to detox any more. I was very frustrated because the hospital and his Wasatch case manager had told me that they were trying to get him released into a detox unit to get some more help. Well that is because it is Friday and there must be some unsaid rule that they will release unstable people from the hospital because it is the weekend and they all must get off early so they don't have to deal with it. By 3:00 pm Josh was in full "Panic Attack" mode. I called his case manager and he had gone home so I called Crisis and they were gone for the weekend because I guess that no one has a breakdown on Friday at 3:00 pm. We were really worried that Josh was going to take off to find drugs or hurt himself. Mike drove around with Josh trying to talk some sense into him for about 3 hours. Once again I am so grateful that he was home this week. Josh is harder for me because he seems to be so angry with me when he is like this. Mike finally talked him into going back to his grandparents. They have been so great to help Josh. I was worried that he might do something at their house but if it is just him there he seems to be just fine. Maybe because they have so few things to stimulate him at their house, they don't even have a computer. On Saturday Mike found an inpatient drug rehab place that he and Josh went to check out. His case manager had promised that Josh would be able to go into Foothill and get into the county program but the weekend came and well he is a government employee after all. If you want to know how bad our health care will be if we get the bill passed that Pres. Obama has it just scares me to think that we would be in the hands that Josh has been in for the past 4 years with people who just do their JOB and go home on the weekend not caring for the people and families that are in crisis. They don't do anything until the person is so sick that they are trying to kill themselves and others then they intervene and release them in less that 5 days! The place Mike found is a good place but it is very expensive and Josh can go into the county program for free. We are frustrated because we just want someone to help him and the people that are supposed to be doing that have really not cared all that much! We have to wait until Monday so that he can check with his case manager and see if it is okay that he go somewhere else. Josh is doing okay but Mike is leaving on Monday for 10 days and Josh's situation is still not resolved. I hope that we can figure out how to help him and Pray that he will choose not to give in to the illnesses that he fights every day. I just don't know why it is so hard to help someone when they are really sick! I don't know what tomorrow will bring but I hope it is some real help for Josh and some peace for my family.

Thankyou for all your prayers and love! We really appreciate and are so grateful for our families.

We love you all!
Love,
Karen